Turning my food over to somebody else

I started the medifast program on Tuesday. I have chosen to give my food choices over to them since I am not able to make good food choices. I feel good about that. I like not having to plan or figure out what I am going to eat. If like an alcoholic I could just stop eating every day I think I could do that. But as human beings we have to face our demons three times a day. The less I have to deal with regular food on a daily basis the better off I am right now. Down the road, dealing with the issues that have cause my overeating, attending OA meetings, when I feel on better footing emotionally then I can possible work it back into my life. The less decisions I have to make about food right now, the better off I am.

First Day

OK, here I am at 57 years old and have fought the battle of weight all my life. I was chubby as a child, pleasingly plumb as a teenager and plus size as a young adult. Now I am just fat. Do not like saying that. I read another blog where the woman said she always thought of herself as thin. I think I have felt the same way for many years. I have been lucky in that during my lifetime I did not necessarily face size discrimination. Once in a great while, I might get a look but not comments. Were they there and I chose not to hear them I don't know. Outwardly I show the world confidence. But inside it is another story. Don't want anyone to see I might be vulnerable, that I might need something, or might be missing something.

Will write more later.